[Dear Readers: the reference in the below letter is to a previous letter published here]
Dear Papa Bear,
Hello! It's me, Foxy!
First off. Thank you for the advice you gave me and let's just say... I show them the perks of being non-norms and make others wish that they are non-norms.
The post-script in your last letter to me gave me a thought and have a go for it. Although, it took me a good three hours before my fingers stop going numb and dialed his number. I didn't expect him to be so... worried. He sound so worried that he thinks I completely ignored or forgotten his existence.
Here's the story... He told me to meet up at the lawn after sports practice. We meet and then... he hugged me. A hug that I felt it wasn't friendship hug. Luckily no one was around after sports practice so yeah. After that we hang out more. I noticed he hangs out with me more than he hangs out with his friends. I believe they knew I was gay and my friend didn't know. They might haze me but knowing that their "leader" has a close connection, they didn't bother and probably forgot about it. But I have a feeling he knew but he's not showing it.
When we hang out his more... closer so to say. We share meals together, go to movies, see the carnival, play some games at the arcade and share one can of soda... yeah it happened with straws... He's more caring after the episode where I avoid him. I think he's making it up to me. He believes that friends stick together and he thinks the reason why I avoided him because he's paying more attention to his new friends rather than his best friend, me.
One night the school have a party and he have drinks. I didn't join, wild parties is not my cup of tea. I decided to go to bed early but I receive a text, drunk text. He needed help, I went to the party entrance and I saw him wobble-walking down the path. He was so drunk he couldn't keep his balance. I helped him along the way. His dorm is quite far from the party venue and my dorm is closer. Plus he smelled like beer for the whole night. As we prepare for bed... I didn't expect him to strip off his clothes until he was only wearing briefs. He lay on the spare bed like he owned it and slept like a baby... Just by looking at him makes me... aroused? His body was so hot its like he's teasing me, its like he's telling me [i]"C'mon touch them muscles, grope them, worship them, I know you wanted to."[/i]. I resisted and tried as much as i can to keep my hands behaved.
All those time hanging out and that one night... What is he telling me? Does he like me or just toying me? I can't tell! Papa Bear, help!
Foxy the Blessed... and the Confused
P.S. Drinking age in my place is 18. I think in America its 21. Correct me if I'm wrong.
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Dear Foxy the Blessed,
I’m glad you changed your name, and hope you are feeling better about yourself in other ways. I’m glad, too, that you have been seeing this guy who clearly has an interest in you, as well. I think, though, that you are being very guarded in your interpretation of his feelings for you. I mean, if I were just friends with a guy, I would not share a can of soda with two straws. Gosh, that’s kinda romantic, ya know? Kinda “Lady and the Tramp.”
I do not believe his redoubled interest in you is just out of some feeling of trying to make it up to you because he was paying too much attention to other friends. And then what happens when he gets drunk and needs some help? Whom does he call? You!
Also, you know, when people get drunk, their inhibitions often slip away, much like your boyfriend’s clothing in your bed. Was he sending you signals? Does Donald Trump have a bad comb over? It’s epic, baby.
In your previous letter to Papabear, you called this guy “normal,” meaning straight. I think this guy is seriously hiding his romantic and possibly sexual feelings for you. You have shown some great restraint in not taking advantage of him when he was drunk. That’s a good thing, and I am proud of you for doing that. Now, when he is sober and clear-headed, I think you would do well to push the envelope with him.
Tell him you really like him, and when he says, “I like you, too,” add: “No, I mean I really REALLY like you, if you know what I mean? I’m not sure how you feel about me, but if you feel the same way I want you to know my door is open for you.” I think he’ll get the message.
Then don’t do anything else. Let him take the next step. This is something he has to do himself, as someone who is probably struggling with these emotions, but he needs to know first that you are willing to give him that big first kiss if he takes the lead.
Wishing you luck and love,
(Yes, drinking age is 21 in the USA)
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