I having been having dreams lately really arousing dreams. Each dream seems to have one word at the end like a puzzle. I asked a hypnotist about a *ahem* penis enlargement mp3 file she posted on YouTube and ever since I've been listening to it, every time I see a horse I get aroused. I look at their penises and my penis becomes erect within seconds whereas around humans it takes a few minutes to get an erection. It's like my penis was trying to connect with theirs. I love horse penises, with a passion. I even had a dream where a horse was having anal sex with me.
Now I love all animals, but I'm afraid that if I am attracted to horse/animals sexually everyone will think I need to be sent to jail or an insane asylum.
Is this wrong? Should I feel ashamed?
Thanks for your time,
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Among zoosexuals (zoophiles), the most common types of attraction are either for dogs or horses. Equinophilia is not uncommon, and is a result of a couple of factors, including physical attractions (many find the horse’s rump quite erotic, and, of course, there’s the large penis on stallions), and also emotional (after dogs and cats, perhaps the most important bond between humans and other species is that with the horse, which has been a valuable companion to mankind for centuries).
The first thing of note about sex with horses is that, while a male such as you mounting one from behind isn’t dangerous (except, possibly, for sanitary reasons, so wear a condom), being on the receiving end of a horse’s penis can literally be lethal. Some people, therefore, limit themselves to stroking the horse’s member and enjoying the rather abundant ejaculations.
So is it, as you say, wrong to enjoy sex with a horse? Should you feel ashamed? As with anything else about sex, it is a matter of perspective. Some of my readers might note that, in a famous page from history, Catherine the Great of Russia set up a contraption that allowed her to be under a horse and receive its penis in style and (relative) comfort. No one put her in prison because, well, she was in charge, wasn’t she? In modern America, sex with a horse is actually illegal. Interestingly, the law was put on the books only after a man died in 2005 from a torn colon.
People who are advocates and apologists for zoophilia assert that zoosexuals most of the time actually have romantic, kind feelings for animals; that the other animals often enjoy the experience; that sex with animals is not abusive; and that zoophiles would never deliberately hurt another animal. As with anything, there are exceptions, but, for the most part, it is not a destructive relationship.
Is zoophilia a mental illness? Well, that would be like saying that homosexuality is a mental illness, which some people do, in fact, claim. I would say merely that it is a deviation from the norm. In terms of Mother Nature, it is not “normal” because it will not produce offspring, but you and I and many other people know that sexuality is not just about procreation. It is also about emotional and mental well-being. If you find comfort and happiness in sex with a horse and your actions are not hurting you or the horse, then I would go with the Wiccan view and say you’re okay.
However, it would not be unwise to seek out the advice of a sex counselor to explore why you feel the way you do. Not to necessarily “reform” you, but just so that you can gain a better understanding of your feelings and what is going on inside your head. You said that a hypnotist turned you on to the idea of penis enlargement, which somehow led you to horse penises. Why were you talking to a hypnotist in the first place? I was a little confused as to what came first: the hypnotherapy or the equinophilia.
The final factor of which you should be aware, of course, is the social implications of what you are doing. Knowing that the majority of people will disapprove of your actions will make life tough for you when it comes to sex—even harder, I dare say, than it is for LGBT people. So, exercise caution and discretion. And, it’s always a good idea to seek out others like yourself so that you have sympathetic ears.
There is an organization called ZETA: Zoophiles Engagement für Toleranz und Aufklärung (don’t worry, their site has an English version) that would be an excellent source for you. Please check it out to learn more.
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